My blog entries have quite a few spelling mistakes/typos. I'm either slightly dyslexic or slightly bad at spell-checking. Or a little bit of both.
One day i might draw a lollercopter.
Sunday, 16 May 2010
I know its not very original...
but i do love Ellen, and I don't care how stereotypically gay that makes me. and she's done an advert for Covergirl (of ANTM fame). Behold!
As far as I can work out, this is an official, legitimate, commissioned by CoverGirl advert. Except it feels like Ellen's mocking the whole thing? In a lovable way. The trouble with me is I seem to have a genuine difficulty in spotting the difference between irony, mockery and satire and genuine heartfelt meant opinions.
ANYWAY , turns out CoverGirl isn't just an ANTM tie-in (which I always sort of assumed it was).
As far as I can work out, this is an official, legitimate, commissioned by CoverGirl advert. Except it feels like Ellen's mocking the whole thing? In a lovable way. The trouble with me is I seem to have a genuine difficulty in spotting the difference between irony, mockery and satire and genuine heartfelt meant opinions.
ANYWAY , turns out CoverGirl isn't just an ANTM tie-in (which I always sort of assumed it was).
Sunday, 9 May 2010
Selling Out?
I've been worrying quite a lot recently about my new job (paralegal in the Financial Services) and projected career path (lawyer, of some description, which I'll have a better idea about after I've done a year of my Graduate Law Conversion).
I'm not worrying about my ability to do the job because, although it is pretty stressful and involves being hyper-organised which doesn't come naturally to me, I'm actually pretty good at it and have yet to cause any of the clients I work for to go bankrupt. Not that Financial institutions need MY help to do that, they seem to being fucking up quite effectively without me. No, I'm worrying because it feels like 'selling out'. I'm acutely aware that although I got the paralegal job based on my ability to do the job the only reason anyone was aware of this ability was because my Dad had got me work experience in his firm. And I don't like that I have essentially unearned opportunities just because of an accident of birth. Except I can do the job, and having done it will open up opportunities to work in other law firms that focus less on Financial Services and maybe more on defending people's rights. Moreover it's not like my not taking advantage of these opportunities means my parents would suddenly offer legal work experience to someone else or to pay for someone else's post-graduate professional qualifications.
I tried for a year not 'selling out' and becoming a lawyer or some other 'traditional' career and I discovered that I really really hate being unemployed. To the point where I took a two day a week job which paid the same as benefits and involved commuting down to London. I also discovered that I don't like not having a plan - which was interesting to learn because before this year out my life was planned, not by me by my parents and to a certain extent my class/education. Turns out I do want a career path, i just want to know that I've chosen it. More importantly, I spent the year discovering my queer, feminist, creative self which was immensely enriching and empowering. Unfortunately it doesn't pay any bills and whilst I don't aspire to amassing a large pile of money and sitting on it cackling to myself I DO aspire to being able to pay bills, rent, tax and being able to afford to have fun and going to queer, feminist creative events. So maybe I'm not selling out I'm just using what I've learnt about myself in the past year to choose a career.
A huge part of feminism is the belief that women are capable of being doctors, lawyers, architects, police, investment bankers. So it doesn't actually run contrary to my beliefs as a queer feminist to try and work in a traditionally straight-male dominated sector. It just feels like it does.
I'm not worrying about my ability to do the job because, although it is pretty stressful and involves being hyper-organised which doesn't come naturally to me, I'm actually pretty good at it and have yet to cause any of the clients I work for to go bankrupt. Not that Financial institutions need MY help to do that, they seem to being fucking up quite effectively without me. No, I'm worrying because it feels like 'selling out'. I'm acutely aware that although I got the paralegal job based on my ability to do the job the only reason anyone was aware of this ability was because my Dad had got me work experience in his firm. And I don't like that I have essentially unearned opportunities just because of an accident of birth. Except I can do the job, and having done it will open up opportunities to work in other law firms that focus less on Financial Services and maybe more on defending people's rights. Moreover it's not like my not taking advantage of these opportunities means my parents would suddenly offer legal work experience to someone else or to pay for someone else's post-graduate professional qualifications.
I tried for a year not 'selling out' and becoming a lawyer or some other 'traditional' career and I discovered that I really really hate being unemployed. To the point where I took a two day a week job which paid the same as benefits and involved commuting down to London. I also discovered that I don't like not having a plan - which was interesting to learn because before this year out my life was planned, not by me by my parents and to a certain extent my class/education. Turns out I do want a career path, i just want to know that I've chosen it. More importantly, I spent the year discovering my queer, feminist, creative self which was immensely enriching and empowering. Unfortunately it doesn't pay any bills and whilst I don't aspire to amassing a large pile of money and sitting on it cackling to myself I DO aspire to being able to pay bills, rent, tax and being able to afford to have fun and going to queer, feminist creative events. So maybe I'm not selling out I'm just using what I've learnt about myself in the past year to choose a career.
A huge part of feminism is the belief that women are capable of being doctors, lawyers, architects, police, investment bankers. So it doesn't actually run contrary to my beliefs as a queer feminist to try and work in a traditionally straight-male dominated sector. It just feels like it does.
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